I'm still hopping to get that longed for surgery. The surgery means a lot to my health and me. It will be a big change in my life, I know i can count on you guys to be there for me, that makes going under the knife for major surgery for the first time not so scary. Cause I know some of you have been there many times before.
Nothing much happened today. Went to Walmart and got groceries. I HATE walmart by the way I hardly ever find any cloths there that I like that will fit me all the cloths I see there that I love are always a size or 2 to small :(. And the rare items they have that do fit are pretty ugly or they look awful on me to baggy or to tight. Or I hate how they look in general. I hate cloths shopping. I perfer cd's ,dvd's, and books least they dont' come in sizes. And I dont' have to try them on.
And I get mad every week because my dad uses some of the grocery money to get dvd's I've never even heard of.... that are realy boring. Or he gets a bunch of cd's by a group I don't like.Therefore we dont' have enough money to buy me cloths when I need them or something else that I need not want, need. Or that my mom realy needs. With her major loss of weight from her gastric by pass surgery. Her cloths are getting to big very fast and she constantly has to buy new cloths and shoes that fit her. Without like falling off her shoulders!
And it just realy makes me made because he gets these dvd's and don't even watch them but like maybe once every few months and he falls asleep durring them anyway! I don't think he's ever seen the whole story of any of them! Well I better stop before I get to high on my soapbox. Sorry bout that guys but I just had to get it out to someone my mom always takes his side even though she hates that he does it too.
And it's the same thing every week he'll get up to 5 dvds a couple cd's and just a bunch of stuff he rarely uses. He buys more stuff then me! I get a cd or dvd every couple of months and only something I realy want and know I like. grrr I am alone in this weird. selfishly run family of mine. An island of hope in a sea of sameness. Love you guys, take care, and I hope to chat with you soon. *hugs and muahs* byess
Love,
~Star~