As a child I always dreamed about having a Best Friend. A friend that
would always want to spend time with me, would enjoy being around me
and we couldn't hardly stand to be away from each other. Somebody that
I always knew I could be honest with about everything going on in my
life or how I felt about something. I used to see people in my classes
at school and they would say "We are Best Friends". I never had that
growing up. Sure I had people in school that I said were my friends,
but nobody that had alot of the same interests as me. Nobody that
wanted to always come over and play or just sit and talk on the phone
for hours about a bunch of nothing.
Even as I got older I always still dreamed that one day I would have a
Best Friend that would share their dreams with me and their sorrows.
Somebody that would let me share my secrets and they would share
theirs.
The older I got I realized you can have more then one close friend, but
I still envied the people that would talk about their Best Friend that
they trusted more then anything in the world. I had alot of friends
that I thought would be my Best Friend, and I would even tell them
things I would never tell anybody else.....but I always felt like I was
on the short end because they never did the same. They would say they
cared but that would be it.
When I got married I had always heard people say they married their
Best Friend so I thought this would be my chance to have a Best Friend.
We have things in common but it still hasn't worked out like I had
dreamed it would.
I have learned through the years that you can have more then one
friend and that each one can have qualities that some people can wrap
up into one Best Friend. Maybe that is how it is meant for me, I don't
know. I just know I still dream of having that best friend that I can
depend on to always be there for me, even when I don't make sense and
just need a shoulder to cry on or somebody to take my frustrations out
on......and they will let me be the same to them and not shut me out of
their life.
Friendships are one of the most important things in my life. I feel
everybody deserves a friend that they can always be honest with about
anything and you can let them be honest with you, and neither one of
you judge the other.
People shouldn't have to have a shield up where they feel like they
have nobody they can trust or talk to. I try to always be the best
friend I can be so maybe one day I can have that Best Friend I always
dream about.
Maybe I am just dreaming? If I am, it is really a nice dream to have...