Amber's Abode

Bluetooth and jumbles

Welcome to my first blog via Bluetooth headset.  I actually started this yesterday, but I forgot to save the document before I shutdown the computer last night.  Sigh.

The headset is cool.  I can listen to music or use Skype from anywhere in the house.  It is stereo.  You can use Dragon wirelessly as well.  Although I tend not to type when I can't see the screen.  My accuracy still sucks because there is no visible microphone, so I don't know where to aim my voice.  But it is getting better.  The other downside is that I cannot listen to music and use Dragon at the same time anymore.  But I guess that makes sense as well.

My emotional journey, my spiritual one, has become and remains something difficult to blog about.  I feel a lot of anger toward situations that I can't control or make better, like my stolen laptop, or my constant UTI, which seems to have resurfaced yet again, despite repeated and so far completely failed and ignored attempts to educate staff here on sterile care.  I feel a lot of fear and also excitement for the future.  I feel a lot of fatigue, mentally and physically.  I feel joy and love.  Lots of love.  And even peace.  The "problem" is that I'm not used to feeling all of those, completely, all once.  All the time.  My current spiritual journey, which has little to do with actual religion, seems to be about letting these things flow through me while attempting to keep them in balance.  To this end, I have been listening to a lot of Buddhist chants set to beautiful music as well as things like Enya to try to clear my mind a little.  And I haven't felt like talking very much.  To anybody.  So apologies if you feel ignored.  I just don't know how to really vocalize what I'm going through.  I will come out on the other side of this.

Maybe the fact that my medicating psychiatry doctor, just acquired yesterday, is raising my antidepressant levels.  We will see if that works.

My new roommate is cool.  She is smart and funny.  And maybe even a little stronger emotionally than me, what will we do for standing up to the political crap that goes on around here.  Which will be good for all three of us.  The house has been thrown into chaos because we are shortstaffed, and I am now the last one served out of three people instead of two.  Sigh.  But I'm working on changing that.

The best news is that I'm actually being a success raising money for my service dog so far.  Almost $2000 that I know of.  We've got a long way to go but we have started.

http://www.dogdreamteam.com

I got caught in actual Portland style of rain last night with Daniel on the way home.  Besides the fact that we got soaking wet because we didn't bring coats, it was pretty fun and funny.

Now I'm off to wait for my friend Myra.  She's bringing Atlantis, the service dog puppy she was raising for the Arizona Goldens, the organization I am going to get my dog through.  Atlantis is ready to be returned to full-time trainers, so I will probably not see her again after today, which makes me sad because she really loves me.

I hope you all are well.

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