Amber's Abode

Summer: Sun, clouds, and stars

Well, the calendar says it's the first day of summer, but not the weather outside my window.  It's been cloudy and gloomy for the better part of two weeks.  Right now it's also sapping my energy, making me feel like I'm sick and a little feverish.  Part of that is probably that I'm tired from the busy week that I've just been through.  For the first time in a long time, I had company for the better part of the whole week and it was awesome.

Last Sunday, my friend Joanne from the town on the coast where most of my family lives, came to visit me.  She was kind of a surrogate mother figure growing up.  She gave me a homemade quilt as a late birthday present which reminds me of the forest.  I hung it up on the wall.  Beautiful, and one of the few homemade gifts I've ever been given.  We went out to lunch.

The next day, another out-of-town friend came for a few days, and it was amazing to have round-the-clock company for a while after being alone most of the time.  We had such a relaxing, peaceful, and fun time.  The best part was that for the first time in my known history, there were no expectations.  We just did whatever we felt like doing in the day.  Once, we walked in a wooded area.  Other times, we just walked around my city.  In the evenings, we talked like we had not seen each other in 27 years, or just read or sat still before sleep.  I was really sad to see my friend go, and plunge us both back into the world of constant solitude peppered by intermittent chaos, but life will always come around again.

I don't know if my friend will read this, but if you do, thank you for everything.  I may blog about this more later, but now, I am too sleepy and gloomy and although I know the returning solitude is probably a reason for the clouds in my head, so I'm hoping for both physical and mental sunshine to return soon.  Wish me luck.

Happy solstice and Happy Father's Day!

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