Jumping Rainbows

"sometimes you just have to sit still and grieve"

the title of this entry is actually a quote from a lifetime movie i watched recently called the christmas hope.  it was about this family who had recently lost their son in a car accident.  the mom, an adoption agent, was having great difficulty coming to terms with her son's death throughout the movie.  at one point, the husband says to her, "sometimes you just have to sit still and grieve." i watched this movie last wednesday evening, and that quote just keeps running through my head.  why?  it's quite simple, as far as i'm concerned: i haven't yet had the opportunity to truly let that happen since cullen's passing just over two weeks ago.  it's nobody's fault.  well, not really anyway.  see, it's just that the ideal situation hasn't presented itself as of late.  what is this ideal situation, you ask?

though that answer might seem simple when you read it, it's tougher to come by than you might think: i need to be held and allowed to cry until i have no more tears, with the person doing the holding saying nothing!  if, and/or when that scenario plays out, i'll write another entry talking about if what i thought i needed was what i really needed.

until then, will all of you who read this, regardless of whether you know me personally or not, do me a favor?  if someone you know could use a hug, and you're able to in any capacity at all, do it!  when you do, do it without uttering a single sound, try to make sure it's a hug from the front, and last but definately most importantly: don't be in a hurry to let go!

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