Jumping Rainbows

Ending a chapter with absolutely no tears! :)

Approximately 2 weeks ago, something happened that I had been preparing for for quite some time.  Chan and one of his exes started talking again.  When he first told me that they were back in communication, I wasn't surprised, but I also wasn't sure that it was going to go very far in terms of a relationship because I've never really known him to be the type of individual who was really looking for full and long-term commitment, and yes, that goes for the two of us as well.

As time has passed though, and I have gotten the wonderful opportunity to have several different heart-to-heart conversations with him about her, and how he feels, and what he really wants out of this potential relationship, and even had some one-on-one communication with her, I understand that there is a true love between the two of them, and if they can continue to nurture that true love, they will continue to bring out the best in each other for many many years to come!  Although the reality of it is that she will be able to give him more physically than I may have ever been able to, that's not what this is about.  They love each other in every way that they possibly can at this point, and I want to be able to see that grow and mature into whatever it can be!

As I've said many times before, both here, and to him directly, all I've ever wanted is for him to be happy, be it with or without me in this capacity.  The way I see it is that she can give him everything he deserves, everything I've ever wanted to give him, and probably even more than I realize at this moment.  This is his chance to shine, his chance to have someone give him the world simply because he deserves it, and along with that, he also deserves every moment in the spotlight that she can put him in!

Granted, nothing has been made official just yet, but I'm holding out hope that for their sake it will happen very very soon!  In the few times that her and I have talked, she's talked about me being an "awsome person".  I need to take a second to return that sentiment tenfold!  Anyone who is willing to take a chance on my best friend, my confidant, my rock, and even at one point the love of my life, needs to be commended, and I'll be the first one to do that, without question!  Like I told her on the phone the other day, I'm at a point now, after getting to know her a little bit, that I'm starting to love her just because I know how much she loves him, and is willing to do anything to make this work!  Smile

The only thing I've asked of the two of them as they continue to let this grow into whatever it can be is that they cherish each other, and not let stupid shit get in the way like I've gathered it did the first time.  Like I said somewhere near the top, if they can keep the true love that's there now alive, I have no doubt that there will be able to create a long-lasting, and maybe everlasting partnership! 

How many of you have ever seen the movie "The Notebook"?  If you have, then you'll understand the reference that I'm about to make, and if not, I highly recommend putting it on your list of "must-see" movies!  There was a part of me that, after seeing that movie, that wanted the ending to become our ending, however, based on current circumstances, that isn't realistic.  With that being said, all I want now is for it to become him and somebody's ending some day!  I really truly believe in my heart of hearts that if they allow it to be, and nothing stupid gets in the way, it could be their ending, and I would love to see nothing less!

Go for it you two, give it everything you've got, and cherish every moment you have together!  I love you both, and there isn't anything inside of me that ever see is that changing!  Smile Smile Smile

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