For a very, very long time people have told me that I have an incredible way with words. I've seen these claims be backed up time and time again by peoples' reac,tions when I finish talking about any iven subject. My words don't have to just be in spoken form though. In fact, there is at least one person who reads my blog on an almost, if not daily basis that I hope will take as much away from this particular entry as much as he has from so many others since he started reading my blog. Since he knows who he is, most of this entry will be written DIRECTLY to him from this point forward.
As I've told you many times since everything went WRONG on Wednesday night, it WAS ALL A BIG MISTAKE ON A LOT OF LEVELS! 
YES, I love him, but as told both of you on Friday night, I'm NOT, NOT, NOT IN LOVE WITH HIM! You know, when him and I talked in private on Wednesday night, he made the comment that he saw his future in my eyes. It was everything I could do not to cry, and do you know why that was? It was because I see MY FUTURE in YOUR EYES! I have for a LONG TIME and may always! 
Ever since everything went wrong, all I've wanted to do is cry! I know you've said nothing will change between us except the physical, but I feel as though it already has, and it may be beyond repair! At this point, I'm not gonna be able to write much more because of how hard I'm crying! I just hope you can begin to understand how IN LOVE WITH YOU I KNOW I AM! 