By now, those of you who are following my blog with any regularity at all know that I am very very starved for nonclinical touch! Most of you also know that I have made some desperate attempts to make this understood by those around me. As of now, all those attempts, no matter what form they were in, have been to no avail. When the situation that I'm about to write about first happened, I really didn't put too much thought into it. However, now that I've had more time to think about it, it really bugs me, and I would love to know what some of you think if you feel like taking the time to drop me a note.
Early Saturday afternoon, as my sister and I were getting ready to walk to the drugstore, we saw Chandler and Yanni getting off the elevator. As Chandler was backing out of the elevator, he didn't realize that my sister was standing there. Once he was turned around, however, he definitely realized it. They talked for a couple seconds, if I remember right, I think she asked him why he was carrying his sour cream. He casually told her that he needed to bring it down stairs because a whole bunch of people were having lunch down there, and it was tacos. He then asked the two of us what we were going to do. I told him that we were going to walk over to the drugstore. Just as my sister and I were getting ready to get in the elevator, he puts his arms out, leaving no question in anyone's mind that was standing there that he wanted, and maybe even sort of expected a hug from her. She obliged.
Now, my sister and Chandler have hugged each other whenever they see each other for as long as I can remember. It wasn't as though this was something completely out of the ordinary. The more I think about it though, the more it bothers me because I would have given anything, and yes, I mean ANYTHING to have been on the receiving end of that hug from Chandler. Really, truly, that's all I want! It's sort of hurts to think that I've done everything in my power to tell him what I need more than anything, and here she is getting something that she may not even really want, and certainly didn't appreciate the way I would have! Somehow it doesn't seem fair! I feel like I can't make it any more obvious than I already have, and yet she didn't even have to try. Isn't there something wrong with that?
Note: if you have thoughts on this I would appreciate it if they weren't something along the lines of well, you just need to make it more obvious to him! He won't know unless you tell him. I have told him in the context of many different situations, and as of this very moment, I've gotten nowhere. So, I don't really need advice on what to do, but rather I need to know from people standing on the outside looking in if my feelings about this particular situation are simply nothing more than an over reaction. No matter how you feel, whether you agree with the way I feel, or whether you believe it's a complete overreaction, feel free to send me your thoughts. Remember though, I'm not necessarily looking for advice on how to handle this situation.