Kari called me a few days ago to apologize for doing the things that she did to me and she asked if we could be friends again. I suggested that she also call other people she lied to and tell them the truth too. To her credit, she did, and I am very proud of her. Admitting to mistakes is always a good thing.
If she's reading this, I hope she knows that I forgive her. I thought perhaps that starting over would be possible, but the more I thought about it, the more my stomach became tied in knots. I don't think it would ever work. I am able to forgive, but I can't just forget. This whole matter broke my heart like nothing else. The damage is already done. The trust, laughter, fun and silliness of our friendship is gone. I don't hate her anymore, but I don't love her anymore either and friendship can't exist without love.
I wish her the best for her future.
My stomach hurts.