Wow! Always be aware of where you are uploading pictures. I thought I sent that one to my gallery, not my blog. Surprise!
The picture is one of the very favorites ever taken of me, because I don't think I usually photograph well, but I love this one. It is my senior graduation picture, from 1995. And I think, although I was made to keep my hair really short by my parents back then, some strength and I will admit it almost beauty shine through. Probably because I knew I would get the hell out on my own soon.
As far as recent happenings, I had company again for a while, which was really nice, even though it was tempered by a trip to the emergency room. My catheter got stuck, and the stupid doctors pushed it back in before finally agreeing to change it, causing another bladder infection. But I just took my last of the antibiotics today.
I've been thinking a lot about my life and what makes me happy, and am come to the conclusion that I need to someday soon find a place that I can call home, really home. My very own instead of other people's. I'm not sure where this journey will take me, but I will keep it in the updates periodically.
I never knew it was possible to feel this lonely. I miss my company very much. But it's also good because I know that I am truly loved and respected by someone, that I don't need to settle for less. So I will deal with the loneliness as a result of a lack of that as gladly as I can, because it means I had it once. And I will find a place where that can exist all the time. I'll be home soon.
I kind of have to be. It's getting more and more dangerous here. Even in front of my friend, some of the staff here was very rude and incompetent. Once they almost dropped me and laughed about it, and once they failed to answer my call light when I was choking. And my friend and neighbor, Wayne, died supposedly in his sleep on the 12th, but I'm a little doubtful they just didn't answer his light in time. I hope to god I'm wrong.
Anyway, I don't know what else to do, so I think I will go out and read my kindle in the shade. It's supposed to reach 95° today, which is hot, but I am loving seeing the sun again.