Hi there. The good news is that I'm alive, and I just wanted to write here to prove it.
What has happened is that I got pretty sick in like the middle of May, hospital and everything, and just now I'm beginning to feel like my normal self. There was a lot of necessary staying in bed and then a lot of necessary staying in the house. I can tell you a lot of things about the experience, which I was planning to do in the middle of the experience but had no energy, but at this point it would be a lot better for everybody if I skip the details and just say that it sucked royal dick, and just move on.
I am a lot better, almost perfect now. But I am still dealing with a little weakness and some nausea from an antidepressant I was trying, but I tried to take it with food now, and that really helps. Although I'm still going to ask my doctor in a couple of days if she can take me off of it. Because although they say they see no more side effects, I feel them. Constant motion of the muscles and little body tics that kind of look like a meth addict looking for a fix.
But I do have some really good news. My caregivers were looking for a house which cost them less money in rent, because they are being completely fleeced by landlords of this house.. So they found one nearby that is bigger and better, especially for me. I got to go to it and go through it today.
The Max (our name for the commuter train that connects the suburbs to Portland proper) is straight down a long sidewalk, which is really good and not bumpy. Plus, it's on the end of a dead end street. So that means there are no crazy gang members racing up and down the street. Much safer for me, especially at night. And my room is much much bigger, which makes me more excited, and it has a roll in shower, which will really help me out.
If I have to stay on this side of town for a while, I'm really glad it will be in that house. Unfortunately, we have to wait three weeks. I will probably even have room enough in my room for a surface like a drum kit or what ever you call the physical thing with the sliders, which will be good for me, probably able to actually DJ without having to worry about a mouse and dragging. What else am I going to use the economic stimulus check for? :-)
I was really sad that because of continuing weakness, I had to miss Pride last weekend, because I have been going for three years running, but now I'm happy because it's the first day of summer and solstice and sunny. And to keep me hydrated and hopefully infection free, I am being watched to make sure that I drink a lot of water during the day. Or other water like liquid. At first being watched and kind of forced to drink at least 16 ounces at one time was really really annoying. But after the first couple days, when I stop feeling waterlogged, it's going better because I actually get thirsty when I'm supposed to, so it's easier. I guess old habits die hard. I trained myself when I was little not to drink very much to avoid having to go to the bathroom so often because it wasn't fun dealing with frustrated parents especially in the middle of the night. I didn't realize that that is why I carried it with me, but now that I know, it's easier to do overcome.
Anyway, now you're all caught up. Hopefully it won't be so long between postings next time. But if it is, try not to worry. I'm just going through things to write about later. I didn't know so many people cared. People are calling me on the phone and e-mailing me asking why I haven't blogged. I want to be nice to everybody, but the real truth is I blog because I want to, because I need to get something out what other people can hear my voice so to speak, not just for my readers, although I love my readers. I blog mostly for me, so try not to get angry at me or to overly frustrated if you don't see my words for a while. It just means I'm collecting things to write about later. :-).